Change. The one thing that many people hate. People also know that change can be beneficial and help bring out a better person. I am one of those people who understand that change is helpful, but also don’t like it at all.
I have lived most of my life living the same way. Hanging out with very few people, focused usually on only school, being very quiet. 16 years of the same thing. It made me be the way I am: calm and quiet. This junior year I have tried to put myself out there more. Many new things that I have tried. It has made me encounter many new people and has brought me many new friends and more people to talk to. But even with these new experiences that have brought me some new things to be happy about, it tired me. I just wasn’t used to this change. I lost a lot of energy because of this change and struggled to keep myself up.
I have been going back to my usual life, the “boring” one, and have been enjoying myself again. I’m ready to finish off this school year with lots of energy. Some people have told me that I need to become more social and try new things, and I do agree with them, but not completely. I did enjoy those activities that made me more social and I still look forward to that. But living in a quiet world again where I don’t have to worry about anything else but myself is a life I grew up with and enjoy more than putting myself out there.
This change I experienced earlier in the year helped me learn a lot about myself and I don’t regret it, even when I felt like I was losing myself. It brought me something new to look forward to and has helped me open myself up to new experiences. Without the change, I would probably still be living my normal life without experiencing new highs and lows to my life. This change has made me want to experience new and different things that are out of my comfort zone. Change is the only way this would’ve happened.
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Man it’s suprising how many people have wanted to put themselves out their more this year. I too have been trying to really push myself and have seen many others reflect this sentiment. I guess an entire school year of being cooped up inside away from real social interaction puts it into perspective. It’s also good that you haven’t grown bored of doing things alone, even I got tired of staring at a screen to grind out some game I don’t enjoy.
ReplyDeleteI love the anecdote you shared, it's very insightful :) I think it's very courageous of you to step outside of your comfort zone and try to adjust to these social changes, and being able to revert back to your usual life when you needed the break. A lot of people are afraid of changes, but I do believe that there's a balance between the good and bad things that comes with it.
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